I was able to reach my own goal, last week. Just barely. I have no idea why it was so terrifying and daunting to open up the draft file for the Book and start reviewing, editing, and thinking. I felt as though I was facing the writing of an essay that was due the next day for a class I didn’t want to fail.
Once I actually got started, though, I realized that this wasn’t a report on the latest medical implications of nanotechnology. It’s the book I’m writing with Amanda, dang it!
Out of sheer stubbornness, I edited a full page – and a bit. Strangely, the stubbornness wasn’t my own determination to complete the editing of the first draft. In truth, it was the result of knowing that I had already told you, Reader, that I would have that first page edited by last Friday, and I didn’t want to have to admit that I hadn’t done it.
And so, despite the fact that I went out shopping with Amanda (don’t get me started on the low quality of Nexxtech phone headsets or the high value of the replacement program at The Source), that I wrote 16 articles for my customers, and that I spent some time in the evening writing “new stuff” for the book with Amanda, I still completed that page (and a bit) of editing.
It feels great to have that one page (and a bit) behind me. It may be the tiniest victory, but it is an achievement. It’s a step forward with visible results. It’s not just a matter of having read the draft. I have now, officially, made changes that have improved it.
I also feel that, from now on, going back to it will be far less daunting. In fact, it’s exciting and I’m looking forward to it!
Why is it that we torture ourselves about doing certain things? We build them up to be such an enormous drama, when the tasks are entirely achievable? It’s not as though I’ve never edited anything before. It’s a part of my daily work!
Sometimes I feel the same way about other activities, too. Cleaning and exercising are a good example of my brain’s continual effort to stop me from getting anything done. I actually like both of those things (okay, I admit that I’m not a fan of vacuuming, but other forms of cleaning aren’t too bad). I enjoy the challenge and I like the instant gratification from completing them. Still, the thought of doing either of those things is about as appealing as a root canal.
Not anymore! Well, at least not when it comes to the Book. I’ve had my first small victory and I liked it! I’m ready to keep going and I’m absolutely certain that this first book – and the series that will follow – will be something great. That said, I’m not making any promises about the exercising and cleaning.